13 Sep 2015
Update: 24 October 2015
Since my last ranting, I've calmed down a bit. Lessons have been learnt, yes, but the heart is still open. Just incase anyone has any doubts about that. :) Life is a rollercoaster, and no matter what, I always get back to the top.
FYI, this quote isn't quite accurate.
I've recently learnt an important lesson.
Don't start caring about people too soon. Chances are if you do, they won't appreciate you, won't value you. They may even disappear on you. Maybe I had it coming. Perhaps I showed too much care, too soon. I got excited. I thought I had found someone to care about...
For someone who wears my heart on my sleeve, it's tough to not care. In fact, all that caring I do show, is actually just the tip of the iceburg. There's a lot more caring in me, deep inside. Just waiting for the right opportunity to come out. Tired of being sushed, waiting impatiently to be let out, free to care for someone truly worth it.
But until then, I think I'll just reel in my care, and reel in my heart. Keep it wraped up until I know for certain that it's the right time to care. When the other person cares for me first.
New motto: Stop Caring, Start Working.
Deadlines are calling. Chop, Chop!
18 Apr 2015
I knew that this day would come but I didn't think it would happen this way and this soon. It was my fault. I was careless when I perched you up on my head for a second. For one brief moment, I forgot about Gravity and its profound effect on all elements on earth. You tumbled on to the floor. I knew that it was too late when I heard the sound effects you produced. I braced myself for the inevitable and turned around and looked down. My biggest fear came true. You, my dear sunnies were broken, both lenses lying close to one another. It was too late.You were gone.
I gulped and attempted to make myself feel better by telling myself you could be fixed. But deep in my heart I knew, I was only kidding myself. There is no way I could use you again!
So I tried to make myself feel better, remembering that you were the one I chose as a sunny companion six years ago. You were a little more expensive than I had anticipated, you Fossil you, but when I used you, I felt cool. I felt beautiful. I felt awesome. I couldn't say no to you.
You accompanied me on many of my trips - Australia, Thailand, India, UK, US...Remember our first solo trip together, when we went to Spain? We made history there, you and me, walking for 5 hours, exploring the city of Seville, getting lost in Cordoba and Granada, fighting off pickpockets in Madrid and Barcelona. Through it all, you were there with me. I had an inkling about how Christopher Columbus felt, as he explored unchartered waters - I felt the same way too, as I explored Spain with you.
There's nothing much I can say say Sunnies, except to say, you really made my days cool and gave me the strength to walk on and continue exploring. Thank you for six beautiful years together and rest assured, you will be missed.
Lots of love,
|See how cool you made me look?|
8 Apr 2015
Yes, one more year to the big 4-0!
Time passes by very fast when you are...living life...and having fun. The good thing about being 39 is, at the cusp of being 40, I find myself asking some interesting questions. Like...where did the years go? Have I achieved anything significant in my life? Am I ready for a brand new chapter in my life?
At least, I have one more year to ponder on the answers...I have one more year to add a few more achivements under my cap. But I know I'll be ready for 40. That's for sure. I don't have anything in black or white, nothing concrete, but I do believe that my life will be changing for the better this year. Maybe it's just instinct. Or wishful thinking. Maybe it's a mixture of both? I can't say for sure, but there is definitely something in the air. I just have to ride it out, be positive, keep my options and mind open and...see what happens.
For those who are reading my blog and wondering why I haven't been updating it much, let's just say the work has gotten to me. I'm currently working on a few writing projects and have not had the chance to blog much. Still, I am having fun whenever I can and am looking forward to more fun in my 39th year on Earth.
I gotta admit. I'm excited...excited about what the Universe and God has planned for me. I'll check in again soon.
28 Oct 2014
Sometimes I wonder why we meet certain people in our lives...
Maybe you're meant to figure it out as you go along...maybe it's because you're meant to have a new friend, a mentor, an advisor.
Or possibly, someone to make you feel alive, the most alive you've felt for a very long time, even if for 10 minutes.
Eyes meet eyes. Words are spoken. And yet, between those words unsaid and exchange of looks, there is something more. Something that caresses the heart, soothes the soul. Something that could have been something...but...alas, circumstances are not ideal. Geography plays a part. So does the past decisions.
This may be a meeting for of the minds but what are the possibilities of a future? Another case of
Que Sera Sera. What will be, will be.