As if updating and maintaining one blog is not hard enough! Now I've got to have two...cos' I like this blog to be private, almost invisible. I like getting my four or five comments from the usual suspects - Saby, Anu, Nalina, Dash, my friends Sri, Cathy and Suresh Nair. I am perfectly contented. I don't want the whole of Klang Valley or Malaysia reading my innermost thoughts, thank you very much.
24 Jun 2009
19 Jun 2009
The lady who sits across from me, once again started her complaints about me. That I sit on my stories. That she can't understand why I can't write two stories a day. My blood started to boil. So it doesn't mean shit that I am the only one in the section, who has to write articles from entertainment, health, education, the tv highlights, the around town section, be in charge of the numerology section...
I pointed out that I was working on something that is due next week, which is more important than one that is going to start on the third week on July. Then she went on one of these rants and I just couldn't take it anymore.
I told her if she was not happy with me, to find someone else to help her. She replied she would talk to the new management and transfer me to another section. I said, please do!
So yay! Anu did it! :)
18 Jun 2009
My past posts have been but a tip of the ice burg of how I really feel. But truth is I have been afraid to throw caution to the wind and blog my heart out. Life is not as peachy as it is but I don't want to make it worse by reading and rereading the sad, emotional posts.
I want to feel better and go ahead and live life to the max. Being melancholic-choleric as I recently found out, my zest for life comes in fits and starts and I know this is something I have to work on.
In the meantime, I have promised myself to use the blog as a canvas for my feelings, to be that 'shoulder' to depend on when as I continue this tumultous journey called Life.
14 Jun 2009
Craves change and new things, always looking for new adventures and activities. Becomes restless and frustrated when she has to wait to long for things to develop. her impatience leads to irritability and a desire to move on to the next project.
Your Stress Sources
Her stubbornness and will-power has become weakened due to current difficulties. Feels overworked and emotionally drain; as if all her work is for nothing and she is getting nowhere. The situation is very real to her and she wants to escape, but has no idea how to do so or how to even approach the situation rationally.
Your Restrained Characteristics
Current events leave her feeling forced into compromise in order to avoid being cut off from affection or future cooperation.
Is bothered when her needs and desires are misunderstood and she feels there is no one to turn to or rely on. her self-centered attitude can cause her to be easily offended.
Conceited and is easily insulted. Holds back emotionally but is able to find satisfaction through sexual activity.
Your Desired Objective
Looking for a loving relationship, which brings happiness and contentment. Brings emotional excitement to the relationship. Helpful and willing to give as much as she takes, and requires the same sort of giving relationship from others.
Your Actual Problem
Tension and stress is brought on by trying to cope with conditions which are out of her control, using up all her strength and leaving her feeling inadequate. she wishes to escape into a more peaceful and problem-free environment, in which she will no longer have to assert herself or deal with so much pressure.
7 Jun 2009
Just when u are ready to give up, to erase any proof of being there, done that, life presents u with an offer u can't resist. Someone who reads, someone who's emails are like a breath of fresh air. Someone with quality who wants to be a friend.
Although u never know if that wide ball, that one extra run will result in winning the match. U gotta embrace that one extra run and continue to bat, then bowl, every time, giving it your best shot, a 100 percent.