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27 Mar 2010

Where's that bull?

After more than 10 years of having an active online social life, I am ready to throw in the towel.

Well, ok so maybe 'throw' might be a tad far fetched. Perhaps 'keep-at-a-bottom-of-a-drawer' would be more like it. Just knowing that is there and that u can use it anytime u need to. That is more like it.

It started off pretty harmlessly, in the late 90's when the Internet made its presence. All for the sake of curiousity, I began surfing the web, chatting in various 'rooms' and made 'friends' along the way. mIRC, Yahoo chat rooms, ICQ. I had my share of online boyfriends - even one from the UK. A quiet and shy girl, being online was the one way I could talk to guys cos' I could never do that in real. I met many guys this way, through chattting, and dating sites and some say I was pretty brave to meet so many of them. I, like thousands of others, got absorbed into this exciting, online world and spent hours on it, feeling like it was a part of my world, my real world.

And boy did it feel real. I knew so much about a person, I could pretty much guess his next question. I would rush back home just to go msn messenger or chatrooms, just to chat with my 'friends'. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for the online friends who have ended up being real friends, but...

Suddenly being online just doesn't do it for me anymore. The satisfaction that I felt is fast disappearing. Yes, I am still a little quiet but I am not that shy girl any more. I've grown up, matured. I can talk to guys now, I have evolved. And now I have the urge to be out of the house doing something, anything as long as it is something real. Watching theatre, exhibitons, jogging, walking. Whatever. Perhaps I've hidden myself away from the real world for too long and it is time to take the bull by its horns and just see what happens.

Let's see where the roads of life will take me.

4 comments :

Suresh Nair said...

Finally you have been cured of the online addiction.

Welcome back to the real world!

sabrina said...

Well i hope this only means that you'll be leaving that blasted FB and not discontinuing your blog or twitter!!!!

Asha said...

Way to go girl. Sometimes these online stuff are not real. It's virtual maya and for some they can't come out of its web.

Anu said...

Suresh - thanks for the wishes. :)

Saby - Unfortunately I can't leave FB cos' I get updates of events and happenings there (for work). But I have managed to cut down FB time by half, which is a good start. And blogging will continue as a form of release.Twittering may stop in a while though.

Asha - I am glad I realised it before it became too late. :)

 
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