Well, ok so maybe 'throw' might be a tad far fetched. Perhaps 'keep-at-a-bottom-of-a-drawer' would be more like it. Just knowing that is there and that u can use it anytime u need to. That is more like it.
It started off pretty harmlessly, in the late 90's when the Internet made its presence. All for the sake of curiousity, I began surfing the web, chatting in various 'rooms' and made 'friends' along the way. mIRC, Yahoo chat rooms, ICQ. I had my share of online boyfriends - even one from the UK. A quiet and shy girl, being online was the one way I could talk to guys cos' I could never do that in real. I met many guys this way, through chattting, and dating sites and some say I was pretty brave to meet so many of them. I, like thousands of others, got absorbed into this exciting, online world and spent hours on it, feeling like it was a part of my world, my real world.
And boy did it feel real. I knew so much about a person, I could pretty much guess his next question. I would rush back home just to go msn messenger or chatrooms, just to chat with my 'friends'. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for the online friends who have ended up being real friends, but...
Suddenly being online just doesn't do it for me anymore. The satisfaction that I felt is fast disappearing. Yes, I am still a little quiet but I am not that shy girl any more. I've grown up, matured. I can talk to guys now, I have evolved. And now I have the urge to be out of the house doing something, anything as long as it is something real. Watching theatre, exhibitons, jogging, walking. Whatever. Perhaps I've hidden myself away from the real world for too long and it is time to take the bull by its horns and just see what happens.
Let's see where the roads of life will take me.